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I realized today that one reason I don't practice "mindfulness" more is that with it comes the realization that I am physically uncomfortable a lot of the time.  

Nausea, or sleep deprivation, or acid reflux, or sinus pain, or something yet else.  The key to getting through the day is dissociation.  I don't need anyone to tell me that this is ALL WRONG.

But I don't know what to do about it.  I have my new CPAP machine and am attempting to get used to it.  (I am on an ACE inhibitor for blood pressure, and those have "dry cough" as a well-known side effect.  This doesn't work well with a CPAP.)  And I think I must be doing something wrong, because I keep waking up at about 1 am with a nasal mask full of condensation.

Sleep dep can do a lot to cause nausea and acid reflux, in my unscientific observation.  I carry antacids around.  I also carry Aleve for the sinus pain.  I've been to the doctor a couple of times, asking about a possible infection, but it's inconsistent.  I've read that many times people mistake migraines for sinus pain, and maybe that's what I've got.  (If so, it's a pretty mild migraine.  But they do run in my family.)

Oh, dear, distressed cat noises.  Must go investigate.  



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Jan. 2nd, 2013 02:50 am (UTC)
Interesting observation. As someone with fibromyalgia, I can definitely attest to the dissociation. Only problem is, when you tune out the hurt, you also tune out the pleasure, which wracks havoc with my libido, much to the unhappiness of my dear husband /TMI

Unrelated: my dear friend (that I ended up not editing for after all) has published both an e-book and hard copy version of her pr0n. For your amusement:


I have no idea if it's any good. I am afraid to read it, although really, it can't be any worse than 50 Shades. Can it?
Jan. 2nd, 2013 12:10 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think it might. After all, 50 Shades was published because it was compelling to read.

I notice her blurb doesn't indicate that it's about vampires or sex, thus depriving her of two big draws.
Jan. 2nd, 2013 01:49 pm (UTC)
This is a different one (that I thought she had already published, but apparently not). She published the vampire thing at the same time, which is silly because she has no clue how to market herself. She just made a FB page for her pen name, made her friends sign up, and just keeps saying "buy my book" and "share this everywhere" because she thinks that's how social media marketing works. I've tried to explain to her that she isn't supposed to sit back and wait for us to sell it for her. She has to actively work at this. Post and pray doesn't work. Not for artists, not for musicians, not for writers. She really should have talked to the supposed publisher that showed supposed interest because this is going to bomb like whoa, and she's already counted her chickens.
Jan. 3rd, 2013 12:28 am (UTC)
Sigh. As Elvis Costello put it, "Some people can't be told, you know; they have to learn the hard way."

It would be interesting to talk sometime about publicizing one's fanfiction and whether social media marketing is simply in bad taste for that. I admit I don't know how social media marketing works (despite working for a company that does a Twitstream about it) but I do know that any obvious (or even detectable) effort at self-marketing other than posting a notice about your work is much frowned on.

Jan. 3rd, 2013 12:32 am (UTC)
Fanfic, yes. But times are changing. I wouldn't be in business if artists weren't out there attempting to promote their own work. Bands are certainly doing it. Some authors are, too. But there are right and wrong ways to do it.
Jan. 2nd, 2013 01:57 pm (UTC)
Jan. 3rd, 2013 12:29 am (UTC)
I don't do Facebook, unfortunately. But it looks nice, as these things go.
Jan. 3rd, 2013 12:33 am (UTC)
Ah, I'd forgotten. Which is silly, because otherwise, we'd hang out more than we do!
Jan. 3rd, 2013 01:42 am (UTC)
My current client doesn't allow people to go to "social media" sites from their network, which is why I only tweet in the evening. They're within their rights, and I understand why (they deal with lots of confidential information). But it makes things a little more lonely.

Edited at 2013-01-03 01:43 am (UTC)
Jan. 4th, 2013 01:24 am (UTC)
(Hi! I don't know you, but I'll just jump right in...) I'm extremely wary of self-published works, but the premise sounds like something I MIGHT read (although the description gets off to a slow start). I'm not likely to sink money into something sight unseen, though. I went to the Facebook page, hoping for more information, but there's really nothing there. ("We have made the book more male friendly by adding a index of the flash drive at the back of the book"? Really? I don't even know where to begin with that.)
Jan. 4th, 2013 01:34 am (UTC)
Do you have a Kindle/reading device and Amazon Prime? If so, it's eligible for the lender's library for free, so that's something at least.

I'm trying to work with her to improve the FB page and how she's promoting the work.
Jan. 4th, 2013 03:08 am (UTC)
It occurs to me, after having looked at her FB page: you can't put a work out there and then pretend you're an established author whose name speaks for itself. It seems to me that you'd have to work twice as hard as a professionally published author to sell yourself.

Consider Paul Cornell, who is a successful writer by just about any standard. He works very hard to promote his work: he tweets all the time about places he's going to be doing readings and panels he's going to be on. And (no offense meant to Mr. Cornell) he appears to re-tweet every nice thing anybody says about him and post a link to any good review.

So it seems to me that she'd have to work even harder than that, because she has no reputation at all and is operating without the implicit guarantee of professional publication that someone thought her stuff worth reading.
Jan. 4th, 2013 03:12 am (UTC)
Exactly. I even pointed her toward a best practices page for facebook fan pages that say if you're just starting out, you really shouldn't have a fan page. and releasing two unrelated books at once is also not a great idea, especially since they're radically different in tone, in content, and even the whole heinous second-person thing.
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Jan. 2nd, 2013 12:12 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I get sleep, just usually not enough, and if I sleep my fill I'm unconscious for 12 hour stretches. It's worrying, among other things.

Tonight was a mostly successful CPAP trial, so I may be making progress. Got to figure out this condensation issue, though.
Jan. 4th, 2013 01:27 am (UTC)
Have you tried more than one ACE inhibitor? Altace gave me a cough, but I'm fine on lisinopril.
Jan. 4th, 2013 02:58 am (UTC)
That's a good suggestion. I'm actually on lisinopril, and today was the breaking-point as far as pretending I can tolerate it is concerned. (I kept running out of a conference room to cough my lungs out.) I will contact my doctor tomorrow.
Jan. 4th, 2013 03:58 pm (UTC)
Yikes! Poor you.

Probably you know this already, but just in case: Aleve can cause acid reflux/nausea/stomach misery. Have you tried switching to a different NSAID temporarily, just to see what will happen?

On the migraine-vs-sinus headache question, you could try getting your doc to give you samples of some triptanes (drugs of choice for migraine because a. they work most of the time and b. no cognitive- or mood-related side effects!) If the triptanes fix the problem, it was a migraine. (If it turns out that you had a migraine, talk to lots of other people with migraine about fixes of various sorts, because docs love to hand out drugs and most of the "preventative" drugs are way worse than the cure in my experience.)

I'm really sorry you're experiencing so much discomfort. Sometimes the most useful thing about meditation/yoga/mindfulness practices of various sorts is that they force me to notice discomfort before it turns into a seriously painful, mobility-impairing condition. So you are not, in my arrogant opinion, doing it wrong.
Jan. 15th, 2013 11:56 pm (UTC)
(Just noticed this...)

You know, I never noticed that Aleve caused stomach upset, but now that I do, I realized that you're absolutely right. It does! I just never made the connection!

The headaches/sinus pain comes and goes. It's not debilitating, but I do have to tune it out. But that leads to more tuning out of things.

I have been feeling much better over the past week or so. Ensuring that I go to bed early enough has made a big difference. Add "staying up late" to the list of things I keep trying, hoping that this time it will come out differently ....
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