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Ohio Valley update

Well, the power went out for me and (apparently) 1.9 million other people on Sunday afternoon as Ike made its way towards Chicago.  I spent the afternoon reading and then writing on the balcony, while other people on their balconies audibly asked each other what was going on.  (Winds were high, but we live in a sheltered little alcove.  All we could see were trees tossing.)  It was puzzling because it wasn't raining.  Normally when the power goes out, there's rain or ice to go with it. 

I tried to write something constructive, but all I could do was write about the election and about my cat.  Part of me has already retreated and frozen up, preparing for his death.  I know this is wrong and that I should spend extra time with him, committing him to memory, but I've been holding part of myself back.  I've never faced lingering illness in someone or something I loved before, only abrupt, catastrophic death. 

The power came back on at 7:30 in the morning.  I'm in the lucky minority.  My sister has been without power for about 30 hours, and my parents won't get power for another few days. 



Sep. 16th, 2008 12:18 am (UTC)
I'm glad you and the family are safe, even though not having power stinks.

As for your cat -- it's natural to want to protect yourself from grief. I've gone through the same thing with chronically ill pets, and each time is exquisitely, painfully unique. I'm not going to tell you that it will all be better. Just allow yourself some time to be sad. Don't try to cover it all with cheer and convince yourself that you're a bad person if you are angry or sad. If you let yourself go a bit, you may find it's easier to enjoy her company for its own sake.

Sep. 17th, 2008 01:28 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for the words of comfort and sympathy. They mean a lot.