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Thinking about writer's block

Considering that I moved house, started working like a lunatic, my cat got sick, and then I got sick, writing has not been at the top of my priority list.

And I was thinking about that, as I considered writing something and then realized with relief that there were dishes to be scrubbed before I tackled anything.

I think I need someone, some figure of even temporary authority, to say to me, "Put the writing first. Put it before the housekeeping, the filing, the organizing, all the staying-on-top-of-things activities that you're so proud of doing yet still feel you don't do enough of. Write, before starting a loaf of bread, washing your new sheets, struggling with your vacuum cleaner, or sorting through your junk mail. Write, before making the bed or scrubbing the George Foreman grill. It's OK. I want you to."

I'm so proud of the fact that these days I'm On Top Of Things. I'm so proud of the bills getting paid, the insurance forms getting filled, the change of address cards going out, all the times I proactively requested refills on my meds. I'm proud of there no longer being piles of Stuff in corners. I'm proud of the fact I can actually do minor maintenance on my vacuum cleaner. I'm proud that I'm never out of lightbulbs and even have a box in my kitchen closet for burnt out compact fluorescents.

When I was in school, there was always a conflict: I wanted to write, my parents wanted me to do chores, practice my cello, and finish my homework. So housekeeping, organizing, and the occasional work-related effort all take priority. I feel *virtuous* by not writing, martyred, but in a good way, by my conformance to the grown-up versions of my parents' priorities.

I want to change this, but writing, my "hobby", with its uncertain goods and merely incidental benefits, seems to make only a very feeble case for itself as a priority.


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Nov. 27th, 2011 01:40 pm (UTC)
Well, if you ever need to be nagged into writing, I'm told I'm good at whining about unfinished stories. ;-)

In all seriousness, one of the people I beta for asks to be nagged, because she finds it inspires her to write when she otherwise wouldn't. I'm always happy to offer nagging services to anyone who wants it because I really don't like suspense so getting license to pester people to write me an ending is sorta awesome I think. Hee.

I totally understand how writes gets shoved to the back burner though. It always seems so self-indulgent somehow.
Nov. 27th, 2011 07:34 pm (UTC)
Hmm. I'm not sure that I want to be nagged as such ... yet. Maybe in future.

(Warning: if you nag me, you'll hear a lot from me about how I *can't* write because something else has arisen and it just isn't FAAAAAIR. But you hear that anyway. :) )
Nov. 27th, 2011 06:29 pm (UTC)
I literally put writing time on my schedule. I block it out. "This is the time when you get to write and are freed from the idea of having anything else to do." I find that works for me.
Nov. 27th, 2011 07:33 pm (UTC)
That's a good idea. I just have to get used to the idea that the writing time cannot be deferred if something else pops up.

I've posted a new question that I'd love to hear your thoughts on. (Perhaps I should post it to one of the dormant writing comms.)
Nov. 28th, 2011 03:43 am (UTC)
Oooh, posting it on one of those dormant comms is a good idea!
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